Doing, doing, doing... done!

So here  we are,  surprisingly unenthusiastic about  getting  the   much-coveted  title  of Logistics Engineer (BA).  Looking back, I  now wonder if   all of it was worth it -  I certainly didn't  get in  much effort  sometimes, so  now I am growling at myself  and wishing I could travel back and  whack myself on the head -  if that would have helped, sure - /snarks/ to get different results.

I am  here, on the crossroads again,  feeling as  if I've lost something,  and gained little.  The  five years of  college, studying  kinds of Math I really  didn't  want to -  sure, they were interesting, but I abhorred the  tests and exams  -   writing  reports,  gathering info, and learning something...  new and  now I am feeling strangely bereft and just  not like  I imagined I would after  finishing the college.  Was it  even worth it? i don't know.  On the one hand, when i am reading requirements  for the jobs,  I don't feel nearly  as prepared as I had though I would have after  finishing the college -  I don't think I would have felt prepared even if  I had  done it  with Magna Cum Laude to boot /sour growl/, but that's  the reality. And  honestly speaking, it  sucks.
Majorly.

 I  feel even more burned  because my presentation and  the work itself didn't get the highest degrees  available -  but  in retrospective,   I  did kind of bungled up the presentation -  but come on, telling  everything in research in measly  ten minutes?  Are they  bonkers  or what?!  /incensed  growl/.  Hells to no.   I am   feeling a little  averted  from  continuing  studying,  because  as much as I am tempted to add the  MA  title, I am  seriously wondering  if  it's even worth it.   You learn, you're tested, you got  graded, and  then you have a paper  that you  can do this and that.  /miffed/.   I  am proud that I  did  my  thesis well - for me, it was two  years of work,  with both successes and pitfalls -   I am wondering what would  they say if  they had known  how much work had gone in  those  140  pages   -  nearly getting a heart attack when  I found out that  part of my  questionnaires - a  very important one -   was missing,   missing the  thesis  because the laptop  decided to be  stubborn and missing  chapters  /exasperated groan/, and let's not even mention the massive amount of translating,   checking the resources and  compiling the whole shebang  so  that it  was a  good  fit  with   everything.   Honestly,  I wanted to howl with injustice.  Yup, still  fuming a little over this.   And   part of  me  balking over the   possible continuation of the study  is  the required  writing of  new thesis.  No, thank  you oh so very much.  I've had it,  and   for now, I  don't even want to do  any kind of serious research.   My  brain  was fried with all  the data  I've  gone through.   But   on the other side,  I know  more about   RFID  than anyone aside the  engineers  that actively  work with this kind of tech.  /grouses/  Fuck it, I knew I  should've  stuck through with my  first college, despite  the  OSL  shit they were  putting us through.

Now I am  here, on the verge of the job search  and still with some regret burning  at the back of my skull.   Whoever  said that  completing  college was  an ecstatic experience, didn't have  a freaking clue.   However,   there's  not many engineers -   especially deaf ones, so I suppose  I should be a lil' bit proud  of myself.

Sooo... What did I learn in those  college years?

Plus side:

• I became  more independent
• I learned to  read  bus  chart (needs must, and all that)
• I learned to navigate through the city
• Got used  to travel via  rail and bus
• Learned to do the  project documentation (scary  shit, but   hafta do it anyway)
• Found out that I enjoy  writing
• Got addicted to  spicy food (Ramen!  And Pizza!!!)
• If you  are really   needing a kick,  then T-400  is the right choice (the darn thing  caffeinates you up to your gills and over)
• College parties are something else
• Happily  discovered the word of manga 
• Learned to  work with computer  and it's programs

Minus side:

•  Money  has to be used  sparingly
• Knowing when the bus comes doesn't  always mean you will also catch it ( winter  is a  bitch),
•  Winter is a bitch times two -  no, times infinity.   Still  hate  iced  roads
•  Roomates  can be  right bitches
• When  you have   a good idea for story, then you are called for outside work, and  you don't get  chance to complain (living on a countryside is not  a  piece of heaven)
• Waking up  early  is  someone's  preferred  torture  method (Not. Me. I am  the victim here, ya hear!) Drinking  the T-400  the night before   just compounds the  torture
• Night owl. Me . 'Nuff  said. 
• Math  in all  shapes sucks
• Grammar also sucks
• OSL sucks the worst.  Honestly, the only torture worse than this is Latin. 
• Still gotta learn. And learn... and learn. It never ends!!!! /howl/

As  you can see, there's not  much positive mentions  of the  school -  well,  I could exclude   masseuse course -   I was  happier to get that done, than I was   upon  finding out that I  passed the examination for BA  degree /sweatdrops/, even if  I did have to contend with  Anatomy  and  other ickies there.   Hmmm.  I think I lean more toward the informal  education than whatnot, than formal -  being pressed into something is not my  cup of tea,  and I was understandably more interested because I invested my time and money in it -  and just  because the heck of it /snarks/.    I sorely needed the change of scenery  from all that   calculating and writing, so this was a good   change, and I learned  much, even if I disliked Anatomy and  First Aid course  something fierce.

Overall, feeling better after getting that rant  out of my   growly,  grumpy little  soul.

Signing off,

Eirenei